Poetry

honest 2009

If I had to be honest I…
Am angry
And I
Am hurt and
I don’t understand this lesson, and
I feel a little burnt.
If I had to be honest I…
Can’t get over my
Own obsessions
And I
Am afraid that this will hurt
If I had to be honest I…
Don’t always trust you
Much less trust me
And I
Don’t know
If I can do this
But I want to stop this madness
And I
Want to stop this
Hurt
I want
Freedom
But lack
Forgiveness
How can I have been this
And still you see me as this
And now I wonder
If I can recover
My God is
This is what love is
I can feel this
How big your love is
Just a glimpse is
Bigger than all this
You started and
You will finish
So I rest at your feet and
I rest in your
Sweet forgiveness
I don’t wonder
You’re bigger than all this… mess




A letter 2009

Don’t get over me my love
Don’t get over this thing I’ve done for you beloved
I greet you gently with my hand upon your face
You are my child no matter how big you get, and I love you even when you forget
Have you forgotten the moment we first met?
Lay your head upon my chest, breath me in knowing I desire for you what is best
Pause, forget the rules of guilt and regret, tell me…confide in me
Keep your eyes open, keep them on me
Let me guide you, to everything I know you can be
Don’t let fear, pride…temptation keep you from me…please
Carry my compassion but don’t let it weigh you down
I feel you, your heart, and how it pounds
But it’s not yours, it’s already been born
Share my love freely dear, don’t hang on to it- I promise to give you more
Sit at my feet and rest. Shhh. Quiet. Just rest.
I know love, there is so much noise
Are you listening? Can you hear me?
I love you…this is not a test